Waiting for Godot

Like Vladimir and Estragon, in Samuel Beckett's tragicomedy "Waiting for Godot," it seems as if Godot (read: Sophie or Caleb) will never get here. I wake up each morning to hear the words, "Godot will not come today, but surely tomorrow." I think the psychological and philosophical challenge posed by eternity is that unlike all other measurements of time, eternity has no beginning and it has no end. This is why this time between the end of our paperwork and our referral feels like an "eternity." Still, the in-between-times have offered me an insight...I now think I grasp the depth of the Shema. The Shema, "Hear O' Israel, the Lord your God is One" and its continuation that you shall love the Lord with all your heart, soul, and mind. I now know what it means to be consumed (heart, soul, and mind) with the thought of someone else, be it God or my child. I am now experiencing something that in the future will serve as a sort of litmus test, if you will, for how much of my being I am actually devoting. Waiting for Godot, waiting for Sophie, waiting for Caleb has caused me to feel what it means to be devoted fully to something. So, "will Sophie/Caleb come today?" "No, but surely tomorrow." And eternity rolls on!

Patience

I was once told as a young person (around 13) by a well meaning adult to NEVER pray for patience, because I might just get what I asked for. I thought this was odd as Ihad grown up in a church and a home where you prayed for the things you sought and you thought God might seek for you and for the most part anything should be prayed for and talked about with God. Now in my late late late 20's I understand I prayed for patience and am now getting just what I asked for. Let me explain. We have been waiting for our first 30 some days since our Dossier arrived in VN. Accoridng to usual timelines we should recieve a referral between 30-90 days. So now I must pray for patience as I am finding this part of the process the most difficult. This wait seems to be taking forever and I am so tired of waiting.
However, I have tried to focus on other things. I am trying to clean the house, organize the office, get caught up at work, go to the gym (not too good at that one), and so on and so forth. I also feel God is telling me to use this time to prepare myself for parenthood so I have slept a little more than usual. I think he lately has been calling me to look at my life and make sure I will set a good example for my child. I think patience is exactly what I need to pray for and that in everything God has a valuable lesson. I will certainly need patience as a parent so I will pray for it and hoepfully God will give me just what I asked for.
Please pray for my patience as well, God may need to give me a double dose.
Summer