Waiting for So-Cal

That is our new combined boy girl name So-Cal Rujamin.

Seriously our dossier aka adoption paperwork stuff is in Hanoi. So now we wait the alloted 30-90 days for a referral. If this adoption is not over soon I may lose my job I have this restless energy that springs from being so close yet seemingly a long way off. Therefore I am having great difficulty staying focused. It could also be that I am a little burned out since I am trying to conserve time off for my maternity leave. It has not seemed that bad to wait before now because we were not done with paperwork and not done with the dossier. We always had one more tick of the list. The list is now ticked and the next thing we await is a call and an email stating this, Chris and Summer, is your child.

We have started putting the nursery together. We have a rocker, a changing table, a high chair ( I know this is not nursery), a play pen, and a busted crib for which I have recieved a refund, and the day bed. Now we are looking for a white crib if anyone has one.

It is hard to go much further until we know who our little one will be. I am so excited and nervous and a little scared all at the same time. It is just nice to know that with any good luck and timing we will be parents before the end of the year. I just cannot wait. My parents will have 5 grand children including two new additions and my mother in law will be celebrating her first.

It is so hard not to be able to look into the future and just know even if it is for the sake of knowing right now.

I go on looking at all the adoption groups, and the adoption agency website, and my own email everyday knowing I won't find anyhing, but it keeps idle hands and brain occupied. I am trying to muster the energy up to really clean the house, but I feel like I should just hold off and do it just before going to Vietnam so that everything will be perfect or at least close to perfect when So-Cal arrives.

This rambling tonight is just a product of that nervous energy.

I offer this little thought to So-Cal. Whoever you are and what ever you are doing we cannot wait to meet you. We hope your name and ours gets to the top of that pile of paper sooner than later, but whatever length of time it takes we will wait as patienly as possible until we finally meet. I would like to have a fantasy meeting where you just melt into us but likley if you are to fit into our family you will poop on your dad and scream wildly at me. Somehow we will fit together. Either way we will love you and try to provide you with a good family. We are going to try our best not to screw you up, but be patient with us we are going to be very new at this. We are getting your room ready and don't worry the dogs are banned. They are angry about this but they are banned. We are trying to use this waiting period wisely by getting as much stuff done as we can around the house. Your job is to stay safe, eat as much as you can, and wait for us to come and take you to your home in Walkertown. Oh, by the way, your father sat in the living room tonight with coat hangers on his head so let me warn you...you have no idea what life has in store for you, but it will be a fabulous trip. Can't wait to meet you. God Bless You. I Love You, Mom, mommy, mother, or whatever name you are going to call me

............Summer